never thought it would hurt soo much

no one has hurt me more than him and no one ever will ! i don't understand god, you told me he changed, you said things would be better, they've gotten worse. if this is love id rather hate . AT LEAST IM GOOD AT THAT. im tired of being hurt by his words and actions i wish he would just change already, god is this a test :'( if soo im failing .how can he even think about callin me out my name when i've been here since the day we first spoke., how can he even think about disrespecting me, to where everyone can see it if anyone was showing out it was him. my anger woke let me sleep, my sorrow is taking over my soul i have bags under my eyes from crying , i have a raspy voice from yelling at the walls. , the only things that will listen. everytime i try to move on i end up here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! broken hearted! never been soo tired of breathing in my life. might be my last blog,
so gone!